No joke about struggling with letting things play out the way they should.
I was very sure that Mr. R and I would end up married.... I had know him 3 year or so before but again... you dont really know someone unless you are looking from the inside out. I do love him and I supose part of me always will, but not in the way that a husband/wife love.
SO... hopefully I have learned not to fight the journey.... I hope so because I dont want to keep doing that. Today I try to make sure Im communicating honestly and watching the actions, not so much the words... Also I work really hard on "letting" it unfold without trying to control it.
I have to admitt though it gives me knots in my tummy at times.