Jewelz - I don't know what to say to you other than I feel like we are all part of the same family here and my heart goes out to you. It is hard and even after you take that step it doesn't get any easier.....or it hasn't for me. I don't when I will get to the point of it's really over for good because I love him still. I think you are doing the right thing to make sure you don't do something and go back and undo it later. This is something I hope for everyday that I will have the strength to keep my word that until a year clean he out of my life.
I am struggling right now also because there for a while, I was feeling so proud of myself for taking this step and actually felt good about it. But so much is going on in my life right now that I feel like I am about to break.
I have seen your words of wisdom to others and God may have a reason why that little voice is saying....not just yet Jewelz. Best of luck to you!