((((Sophia)))
Isn't it awful to watch a train wreck about to happen and can't do a damn thing to stop it?
I would see all the signs of a relapse with my AH and knew that there was nothing I was going to do to stop it. Besides his need to find something to drink about and it didn't take much, it was hard to deal with his lack of self esteem.
My AH hasn't worked in years - except for 5 weeks in a temp position last year - and unfortunately was left a considerable amount of money from his dad and hasn't had to work. He's never really had to deal with his emotional shortcomings and will run out of money eventually and find himself in his late 50's with no employment history. It's like they purposely set themselves up for failure.
I feel your pain. Try to get to a meeting, talk to a priest, minister, doctor. Surely there is some kind of counseling available, even if it is in a group environment.
Take care of yourself (YOU!!!!!!)
Karen