I never thought I could or even would want to stop drinking.
I know from past experience I tried countless times to stop
on my own and I failed countless times.
When I was under the influence of alcohol, it numbed any
kinds of feelings I could naturally have.
Fear played a big role in my childhood life mainly caused my
one of my parents....it was her own sickness that she instilled
so much fear in me from the physical abuse i sustained for many
years....I drank to numb the feelings of anger and hurt....
Eventually alcohol took its toll on me as i spiraled out of control.
It was thru family intervention and a 28 day rehab stay that I
recieved the tools and knowledge of my disease.
My family did for me what i couldnt do for myself.
Today im truely grateful for that....
I will also say that at 14 yrs sober, i realized i had a
chemical embalance that i had to deal with and I did...
Anxiety for the most part and now im able to carry on with
my recovery being less anxious.
I have to take each day as it comes with acceptance and
graditude.
There are many in SR and many out in the world that have
come clean and sober and have managed to stay that way
for yrs by following the principles of recovery in their everyday
lives....
It can be urs if u have the willingness and desire to go to
any lengths to do so.
Fear, insecurities and so much more will eventually fade
away...I know because its happening to me....