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Topic: Would You Like To Share About Ur Fears, Insecurities? What Are You Afraid Of?

Old 02-15-2007, 02:43 PM
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Afraid of my feelings.
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Old 02-15-2007, 03:20 PM
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As you continue on in ur recovery journey u
will hear many of the same phrases over and
over again and they will eventually make sense
to you....

ACCEPTANCE is important.......Accepting people,
places and things just as they r suppose to be,,,,,

Things in the world will continue to change whether
we like it or not....its just the way it is....but for
ouselves thru recovery, we learn to take life as
it comes one day at a time....

Right now if ur a newcomer in recovery all this may
seem over whelming just as it was when i was new...

Over the yrs as i stuck with my program the promises
are coming true....slowly, but they r....fears for all of
us will eventually leave us.....and u will know it when
u work thru the Steps of recovery....

We dont have to go thru wondering, worrying and full
of fear when we have faith in Something or Someone
more powerful than us....

That Strength will carry u all ur life to shield u ,
comfort you, guide u, protect u, strengthen u
and so on.....
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Old 02-15-2007, 05:05 PM
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hmmmmm........

Footprints

One night I had a dream--
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord
and across the sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints,
one belonged to me and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that many times along the path of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
and saddest times in my life.
This really bothered me and I questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you would walk with me all the way,
but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints.
"I don't understand why in times when I needed you most,
you should leave me."
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child,
I love you and I would never, never leave you
during your times of trial and suffering.
"When you saw only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

...Mary Stevenson

\thanks Sharon good post
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Old 02-15-2007, 05:16 PM
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I am afraid I am incapable of recovering from my addictions
I am afraid I will never know peace of mind
I am afraid I will never be happy
I'm terrified something will happen to the people I love before I get a chance to clean up and be a good daughter/sister/friend
I'm afraid I've let so much of my life pass me by because I've been using for so long and made so very many bad choices
I'm afraid I'm going to make another bad choice and pick up again
I'm afraid what comes around goes around and that I have some terrible karma waiting for me
I'm afraid that God is angry with me and what if there isn't even a God? And I always did believe.
I'm afraid to go to meetings
I'm afraid of committment but at the same time I fear I may never get married and/or have a child - I'm 36 and the last eight years have been dedicated to my addiction instead of progressing in life.
I'm afraid of my own mind
wow I can keep going

I'm full of fear. This was a good idea for a thread. I'm just plain terrified.

Fiona thanks for posting your fears...as golfman said your posting might help someone and you knoiw what...It helped me! I thought I was the only one with similar fears and ideas.
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Old 02-15-2007, 05:23 PM
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Old 02-15-2007, 05:27 PM
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Tell me about ur fears Scott....
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Old 02-15-2007, 05:43 PM
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there are too many
addiction and fear will lead to failure
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Old 02-16-2007, 03:19 AM
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Hi Scott.... Start with one fear at a time....
It can be a steppingstone to living a
better life. To loving urself.
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Old 02-16-2007, 04:10 AM
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living w a person I dont know
I havent lived w a stranger in 10 years
I have had a lousy week and worse on the sobriety side
i cant get to meetings I need to
if im not sober or damn cose to it I fear i will lose a place to live
help
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Smile

sharon, thanks for your words!

You seem to have an easy way with people on this forum...you bring encouragement and hope to every person who has posted on this thread. I love that you give a personal message to every stranger who posts their fears.

In my case, everything you said makes total sense, I just 'forgot' to see the sunny side this week, which you reminded me of.

I dug up my diploma, to SHOW myself that I had done something really cool...and I see the Scharzenneggar (sp?) signature...I still cannot believe that he is governor, and his name is on my diploma! hahahaha (I'm from CA)

cheers!
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Old 02-17-2007, 04:18 AM
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Thanks Scott and cuttlefish for sharing.....

Scott....sharing a few of ur fears is a start.
It allows others to see what u r going thru
and that they r not alone....

There were many times in my life that I dont
like to be TOLD what to do....When u TELL me
what to do in a tone of voice that is demanding
arrogant, rude....then i will tune and turn u off. PERIOD

If you suggest something to me, even if i dont want
to hear it, but u say it in a calm and caring way then
I may just follow on with it....

In early recovery i wanted to be the boss, I wanted
to run the show.....I wanted to do my program my way...

I eventually realized i didnt know diddlysquat and that i kept
getting NEGATIVE results....Realizing my way wasnt
working....

Cliqueshs..u say....all those sayings, phrases, u dont
want to hear them....I hear those saying a many a times
and i have grown fond of them. They are not just words
to laugh at or ecnore....They r not silly sayings to me....

They r simply gentle reminders to guide me in recovery.

In early recovery I had no room to be "big headed" a "know
it all" because my best thinking got me into a load of doodoo.
or in other words.. sh**.....

Early recovery i had to let go of that "being better than"
and pulled down from my "high horse".... I had to zip it up,
shut up, sit down and LISTEN....Whether i liked it or not...

I was a peon....a little bit...a nothing so to speak of...These
people in meetings with a hell of a lot more recovery time
had the wisdom and knowledge of how to stay sober...i
surely didnt cause i had failed countless times to stay sober
on my own....

So yeah, i had to sit there like i whipped little thing and listen
to the words....and because i was too full of fear to say anything,
I listened, and i listened, and i went to meeting after meeting
absorbing all that i heard till eventually what i heard began to
make sense.....it didnt happen over night, but over a
period of time that i did not drink.....

I heard many times to the newcomers....try what we have
for 90 days and if u dont hear a word u like here then we
will gladly refund ur misery....

I was already miserable so what else did i have to lose.

And i stuck with the winners..the oldtimers...all those
people before me guiding me thru recovery to get me
where i am today...

Im still no better than anyone...and thats call humility...

I cant afford to be Miss Know it all, so i remain teachable...

Once i think ive got this program by the horns then my ego
will inflate an kaboom it will burst and im a goner...

Take the suggestions as ur life depends on it and stay sober.

Thanks for letting me share.
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Old 02-17-2007, 05:45 AM
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hope i didnt try to tell you what to do .....
thank you for ur reply - u do have alot of wisdom and experience to share
sounds like you had a rough past - wish i could help....it gets me out of my head to help others
im hoping that after i get my transportation problem resolved that things will get better - meetings, people, something other than work and my apartment
i am afraid of what the future will bring as i cant control it
im afraid of getting sober again this weekend cold turkey....
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Old 02-22-2007, 07:50 AM
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I am full of fear. Have just been listing some of them. Can anyone relate to these?

Fear of failure (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of death (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of God/the Universe (grandiosity) (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of people (grandiosity) (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of strangers (grandiosity) (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of infection (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of terminal illness (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of intimacy (grandiosity)
Fear of confrontation (grandiosity) (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of speaking my mind (grandiosity) (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of criticism (grandiosity) (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of anger (my own & others’) (grandiosity) (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of being alone (grandiosity) (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of work (self-sufficiency fails) (laziness)
Fear of inadequacy (grandiosity) (False pride)
Fear of psychological infection (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of being seen as not knowing something (grandiosity) (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of my own violent impulses (grandiosity, failure of self sufficiency)
Fear of feeling shame (grandiosity, self sufficiency fails)
Fear of sexual feelings (Shame/self-disgust/grandiosity)
Fear of feeling vulnerable (grandiosity, self sufficiency fails)
Fear of lust (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of guilt (grandiosity, self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of doubt (grandiosity, self sufficiency fails)
Fear of feeling self-disgust (grandiosity, self sufficiency fails)
Fear of being exposed as naive, spoilt, childish (grandiosity, self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of allowing anyone to see me out of control (grandiosity) (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of physical affection
Fear of resisting aa
Fear of my neighbours (grandiosity) (False pride)
Fear of drowning/sharks (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of consciousness of the moment of death (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of being a phoney (grandiosity) (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of hurting my family (grandiosity) (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of using hard drugs (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of feeling empty/bored (self-sufficiency fails)
Fear of the dentist
Fear of job interviews
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Old 02-23-2007, 11:47 PM
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wow amazing post

wow all, thank you for your wonderful posts! It reminds me I'm not alone. I do fear things...but don't want to put them to "ink" right now because they are not at the forefront of my mind, so why bring them. They were earlier today and it was painful.

But I'm feeling so thankful for this website, and thankful that right now I'm not reeling from the pain of rejection from the breakup that started my recovery, and thankful that I'm getting better (some days more so than others)

Thank you
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Old 03-04-2007, 12:44 PM
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Bumping up this topic for the newer people just joining SR.
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Old 03-05-2007, 10:36 AM
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I fear that my addiction makes me look weak to my wife and children.
I fear that my children will learn my addiction from watching me.
I fear that I will be too hard-headed to get the right help before I do something hugely foolish.
I fear that I will die alone in a pool of my own vomit.
I fear that I will never know peace of mind.
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I never thought I could or even would want to stop drinking.

I know from past experience I tried countless times to stop
on my own and I failed countless times.

When I was under the influence of alcohol, it numbed any
kinds of feelings I could naturally have.

Fear played a big role in my childhood life mainly caused my
one of my parents....it was her own sickness that she instilled
so much fear in me from the physical abuse i sustained for many
years....I drank to numb the feelings of anger and hurt....

Eventually alcohol took its toll on me as i spiraled out of control.

It was thru family intervention and a 28 day rehab stay that I
recieved the tools and knowledge of my disease.

My family did for me what i couldnt do for myself.

Today im truely grateful for that....

I will also say that at 14 yrs sober, i realized i had a
chemical embalance that i had to deal with and I did...

Anxiety for the most part and now im able to carry on with
my recovery being less anxious.

I have to take each day as it comes with acceptance and
graditude.


There are many in SR and many out in the world that have
come clean and sober and have managed to stay that way
for yrs by following the principles of recovery in their everyday
lives....

It can be urs if u have the willingness and desire to go to
any lengths to do so.


Fear, insecurities and so much more will eventually fade
away...I know because its happening to me....
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