"Grieving is an honest affirmation of the value of the original investment of energy. No grief, no true investment occurred." - James Hollis.
Endings simply cannot be without pain. You have many, many conflicting emotions...one of which is the fear of the unfamiliar and unknown. We grieve the loss of hope and dreams...that is natural. Detaching, even lovingly, is incredibly painful. Honour and allow your emotions....for they are normal. It would be abnormal if you did not feel pain and sadness.