I haven't had the experience of living with an A while he is attempting to recover (my A refused to change his ways even one inch) but.......
Sounds to me like your common sense and years of experience are making you know down deep inside that what is happening is an indicator that his recovery may be due for a setback or may fail completely.
Alcoholics CANNOT continue to drink ANY alcohol (including beer) and expect to get well. PERIOD.
I think you're expecting too much of yourself not to be disapointed in what is going on with him. Go ahead and feel your feelings.
Just remember that giving into those emotions and letting his de-railment cause you to have a wreck on the road to YOUR recovery would be a double tragedy.
Anyone who lives with a drinking A, and doesn't feel an occasional dark cloud is either a liar or one of those Stepford wives.
Take care
