Hi Nanita,
Good for you for throwing the rest of the alcohol out. Please don't be too hard on yourself. Alcoholism is a chronic, relapsing disease. I've relapsed a thousand times.
We just have to pick ourselves up and realize it's a new day and there's nothing we can do about the past, but we can manage the here and now.
I know if I don't pick up that first drink, I can't pick up the tenth or twentieth.
I'm proud of you for calling AA. That's a huge step for you! I so hope the meeting goes well. Maybe it'll inspire me to go. I'm excited for you.
I hope the home situation calms down. That must be a tough one right now. But, you can make it through without drinking. What would a drink make better, anyway?
I'm pulling for you, and hang in there!
Paul