Okay, I'm convinced - I need help. Since I posted my last message, about 15minutes ago, I've looked Laramie AA up on the internet and called someone there. They told me where to call to find childcare for my grandson, how to find the meeting, etc. I'm excited to go and have someone to talk to, face-to-face. I do think this will be invaluable to me. My husband is my biggest supporter, but he's really against AA. I think he pictures it as a bunch of drunk of old men, sitting around smoking and drinking coffee and he doesn't want me to go there. A friend of ours in Laramie is a recovering alcoholic and very involved in AA. I'm going to invite them up for dinner in about 10 days (they're out of town until then) and have him talk to my husband. I need to turn this thing around and get some help! Thanks again.