Miss C makes very good points.
what a mind f*ck this all is
LOL. Yeah, sometimes it is.
The awesome thing about recovery though is these mind f*cks get less and less frequent for me, bc my sense of balance and health are more in tune. I still get a wake up call sometimes, but it gets better bc Im not hanging my hopes on someone elses actions anymore. Im in control of my life and am not waiting for someone elses choices to validate my emotions or make me happy.
Its less of a trip the further on down the road you get
