Detox #10
This week....
Monday I thought he was in jail - no he was still home. He called about 9 p.m. wanted to know if we (kids & I) could come over. "NO!" duh
Tuesday -he called about 6. could we come over? After supper we could. He just wanted to kiss me, hug me... etc. I told him to spend time with his kids not me. When he wouldn't kids & I left.
Wednesday - he called hadn't worked all week. He said - when can he come home?
Thursday - I called him- there was a message on the phone from the county- they wanted him to come down and sign some papers for probation (I think they wanted him to do his 2 days in jail)
Friday - wanted to know what we were doing tomorrow. & when can he come home?
This morning he called at 8:13 a.m. everyone was sleeping in. So he 'let me get back to sleep' and I did - until 9:30 a.m - I love Saturday mornings.
Kids and I were gone most of the afternoon. At 5:00 p.m. my son answers the phone and talked to dad - when he handed me the phone my son said "It's dad but the caller id said unknown caller"
Well I found out why. He checked into the hospital for detox AGAIN!!! Let's see it's been 7/04, 8/05, 9/05, 10/05, 12/05, 2/06, 5/06, 7/06, 9/06, 2/07 (+ the time that he crashed his car and basically detoxed in a halo without meds - but it'd only been 2 days since his last detox so it probably wasn't that bad.) And he's been in the hospital overnight for a neck surgery in 7/06 too- but he was sober for that.
I'm the only one he called. He wanted me to call the guy he was working for to let him know where he was. Dummy me I did - probably didn't need to, he hadn't been working for 2 1/2 - 3 weeks anyway. It was just a as needed job anyway though. AH didn't even call his mom or brother or anyone - just me.
I let AH know on the phone that this didn't change anything. I am still going through with the big D anyway. He said he knew but that he couldn't continue like he was. I told him duh - I've been waiting for the funeral - I may have said it nicer than that - but I let him know that I knew he's heading for death.
I called his brother who lives a block away and told him where AH was. I told my bro-in-law I didn't really want to call AH at the hosp and I don't have the security # anymore anyway to get thru. Bro-in-law agreed, and he would try calling his mother & sister so they knew.
My son (8) asked about his dad - I told him he was in the hospital again, for the same thing he always goes there for. Son went right on playing with his toys and watching tv. It's like it doesn't affect him anymore - well I guess AH is not staying at home anyway -so of course he's used to dad not being here.
It is a little nicer just watching the roller coaster, or being on the baby coaster vs. the way it was on the death defying coaster.
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M-in-law just stopped in - bro-in-law had called her and told her.
& then AH called as she was here. He wanted me to write down the phone # there so I could call him. I told him no - I didn't want to call him, what did he want. He just wanted to talk - I told him I didn't want to waste my money (long distance) and time calling him - I didn't have anything to say - and he'd never pay me back anyway. Oh my - writing that I sounded so mean.
M-in law wanted the number though - so I wrote it down and gave it to her.
Was I too mean? I told him the other day when he wanted to come home - that I loved him but I couldn't/wouldn't live with him anymore. And one more chance wasn't an option anymore.