for sure its strange its different...let me tell you i am wild man...i have really honestly lived life on the edge for so long...ITS SO STRANGE confused is not the word to describe it...i am so happy that people will help me to get off this cause sure i could go on with the fun and parties....and the just FUN...i mean thats all i have done....pool parties ugh its sat night i normally this house would be like raging.....is this normal? i feel like just calling and saying PARTY and jump back to the old life....