Hi tj
sorry that your going through the mill at the moment but it wont last forever.I read on your other thread that your going to try AA with your neighbour,thats good its worth another shot even if it screwed you up last time.Stay with your neighbour after the meet for as long as you can,with her being in the fellowship i'm sure she will help you if you crave for a drink.Sometimes in the rooms you can here your own story and that can be upsetting,but no more upsetting than going back to the torment of alcohol.Your doing just fine 5 days in and your strength and resolve will get you through,but if you can pick up a few tips from wherever along the way it will only help!.
Stick with it the new you will be worth waiting for!.
chris.