I just wanted to add that even though none of your mother's husbands were your biological father, they still created a toxic environment for you. ACoA's are also children of toxic families, so much of what is here can apply to any form of toxicity, even serial enabling. The end result on us adults is the same whether it's alcohol, mental instability, drugs, or parents who just needed a good dose of counselling.
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