at first thought i reacted the same to amends, denny. my xh amends, to me, would serve him. for way too much damage has been done for me to accept that i could ever forget...forgive, maybe, but never forget.
then i thought of my children. i love them unconditionally. i don't think there is anything they could ever do that could kill my love for them and not want them back into my life.....that's because i could forgive and go on with them.
so then i think about my xh....why should my love for him be any different? why is it that i can erase him out of my life and say.....i can never go on with you. that is, of course, considering that he would get into recovery and have a spiritual awakening and psychic change.
why is it so much easier to rid ones self of a spouse or partner than their children, when we love them both so much?
it just gets too big for me, sometimes.