Originally Posted by
carly0009 
I would never kill myself but it's like I'm dead already but just enjoying the smell of life while I'm still here.
I feel the exact same way.
I wish I could say it gets easier. Two things did help me a little, however. Anti-depressants and moving forward. It doesn't matter so much what direction as long as you are moving. Moving keeps your mind busy, away from dark places.
Have hope.