Same...
"Cant seem to get totally serious about not drinking.... i still "flirt" with it... drinking a few beers several nights a week. Then saying im going to quit... then drinking again.... merry go round deal. "
Sounds kinda like me, well at least I'm cutting back nights finally, I used to drink 2 months straight every night, and smoke, but I'm cutting... still can't completely get off the booze, least I'm off the cigs only for 5 days so far with the cigs lol.