i cant get serious about anything tho, not just drinking (quitting). Cant commit to things...which is why i dont go to AA...ive gone before... its ok.... but cant/wont/dont go on a regular basis. Not afraid, just very lazy I think. Im the ultimate loner, love to stay home, etc., think part of this is from years when i had severe social phobias and panic attacks and i got into the habit of just never going out, etc.
Well except for the phobias and panic attacks you sound just like I used to be. Alcohol I found is the very thing that caused me to not deal with my real or percieved problems.
Once I quit many of the problems I thought I had dissappeared, others that were real I was/am able to deal with.
Alcoholism was leading me to not giving a damn about anything, it was not until my alcoholism had beaten me down into the dirt that I finally got help, after 40 years of drinking thanks to AA, God, and my willingness to follow directions I am sober and happy.