Slipped again
That is the desease, odds are against for success (thats how powerful this desease is). However, there is something out there if followed as a way of life can give us a daily reprieve from the horrors of yet to come.
A.A. has been proven many times over that it works, AA and the grace of my higher power have given me the chance to not drink or drug for 17 years. When I practice the principles of the 12 steps on a daily basis - WOW. Read page 30 & 31 in the big book.
You have right now and AA, go for it...