EricPaul

Hey, stonerat, you are not an idiot. Such self deprecating sentiments will just keep you feeling bad and then will just keep you seeking oblivion in the bottle. You are just hurting like the rest of us. Booze and drugs cause us to do and say things we don't mean, so cut yourself some slack and don't be so hard on yourself. You are a good person suffering under the influence, like so many here are or have been.

Are you going to AA? Why are you still drinking if you know that it causes you to act like you don't like and causes you to think that it makes you act like a "idiot"? Perhaps it is time for you to get rid of the booze? Hope you feel better and stay sober.