YoungPo.....
There is no shame in taking care of yourself. We ALL have issues, the difference is only a strong person will seek out a way to change.... getting rid of what does not work and making what does work better.
Please dont feel that way.... Today I have an appointment with my therapist... and I have been seeing them off and on for 16 years. No one gave me a manual on how to live life and I find no shame in going to get professional help to learn how.