I haven't made a decision either way yet. I'm still trying to figure out what brought me into this and why I have stayed so long, put up with so much and cared so little about my own happiness.
Only an individual can say what they are willing to live with or even able to live with. I only know that I do love my A very much and feel that he is still capable and young enough for us to survive all this, if he does his part. The important thing is though that I am restoring myself. I am saving myself and my own sanity right now and finding out what got me here so that I am healthy enough to make the right decision. I have enough regrets to let go of, I wouldn't want leaving my husband to be another one, if I'm not sure yet if that's what I'll need to do.