There was a time I had a really big rut. I built it very high with x-tra thick walls.
I would'nt let anyone in, it was my rut, I worked hard to get it. Im fact after some time the rut got so big on its own it would follow me to work,to meetings and it got heavy when I decided to carry it.
It took me at least 2 years to come to the point that the rut was going to control everything I did unless I got rid of it.
So after 900 meetings, readings, friends, people here and fixing that crack in the mirror , I let the rut go.
It will visit me from time to time, but it wont get me like before.