Hi soconfused
Glad you found your way here.
It is probably true of all of us here: We LOVE our A's... and that is a wonderful thing! But love alone does not save them, or you. Love is a feeling; it doesn't mean we have to stay in a place where we are being hurt; it doesn't mean we have to jeopardize our own sanity and peace of mind; it doesn't carry with it an agenda or a set of rules. We can freely love anyone - no strings attached.
Giving yourself space from a dangerous situation / relationship, is always the right choice. Of course you still love him, and thats OK... Just remember that it doesn't mean you have to go back right now, or at any time when you are not ready.
I hope that you give Alanon a try - get your butt to a Face to Face meeting
. I have learned so much and grown incredibly since I began my own recovery. It would be great if you found the same.
Take care
Meg