Thanks everyone! Yes, I'm doing better than at 3 months. I don't think about drinking much any more. There was one really, really rough day after Thanksgiving that DH and I weren't getting along and I was running all over town alone with our 3 kids who were bickering like cats and dogs. I had taken them to the movies and to get haircuts and we were Christmas shopping, etc, basically spending quality time together but DH chose not to be with us. At one point, I suddenly really wanted a drink, and it scared the living daylights out of me. DH stopped drinking the same time I did last June, but he has relapsed several times since then and it has really hurt. The only thing stopping him now is that he keeps getting gout, and it is incredibly painful and alcohol causes gout (along with red meat and other things). The fear of pain is working as a deterrent for him for the moment. We were at the marriage counselor the other day, and we were talking about how he keeps relapsing and how scared to death I am of falling back into that habit and never coming back out. I told her how badly it hit me that day the kids were bickering and out of the blue I was really craving a drink, and it terrified me. She reiterated again to my husband how important it is for both of our sakes for him to stay sober.
I've also had nightmares a few times where I was drinking again, or where he called me up to tell me he was going to go to the bar with his friends and get plastered and he was going to go back to doing that every night again. Those dreams were so real, and also pretty scary. I even woke up and realized hours later that it had been a dream. Isn't' that weird???
I do appreciate all the support here, and seeing that others have had dreams and nightmares like this, so it helps to know that this really is normal even though it seems so strange to me.