I understand your anger. Nobody likes to have someone lie to them, play head games, treat them abusively, etc. But all of us who have been involved with an A have been there. However, as long as you remain pi**ed off at your ex, she still has power over you. It takes time to work through anger, but you owe it to yourself. She's no longer around to hurt you; now you are only hurting yourself.
Have you considered attending Al-anon and/or counseling? I think being able to vent, get over it, and then put the focus on yourself would be helpful. After all, you need to discover how you ended up with someone who stomped on you. You deserve better than that.