Originally Posted by
dazednconfuseed 
I would like to walk up to him shake him and ask him what his problem is.
Melissa, the woman I was married to shook me up countless times in our 12 year marriage. She's gone now and it rips my heart out at times to be away from my children on non-custody nights, but I have to accept that for 27 years it was MY decision to pick up a drink. Most of us would love to drink normally, but I can now say that I'll never be able to drink safely again. For me, to drink is to die. When I pray, I'm thankful for the gift of sobriety that God's given me, and for the beautiful life that I have.
Do you go to meetings? You might consider an Al-Anon meeting. The comfort we can find in others with similar experiences can be truly amazing.