Thank you for the advise. I understand he will be focusing on himself right now. Thats what he needs. I am on the road to helping myself. I have friends that are supporting me. I am going to go to an Al-Anon mtg Sunday. As well as trying a new church with a friend.
I still feel strong about giving him the letter I wrote. Its nothing that would get him angry, it just talks about how I will support him anyway I can. I realize I need to take care of myself right now and that is exactly what I am going to do. Its just hard.
I told him I will not walk in front of him and put him down. I will not walk behind him and let him control me. But I will walk next to him and hold his hand.
I just need someone to hold my hand and I hope I have my friends to do exactly that. I understand he deserves what he gets. Its just hard to do what I am doing when you care about someone so much and only want the best for them.