Am I trying to fool myself into thinking that I am different than everyone else?
David...I've heard it said that there are folks who suffer from "terminal uniqueness"...also, that there is no one too stupid to "get the program", but there are some who are too smart to get it. Maybe they outsmart themselves into thinking they are so self-sufficient they can "do it alone".
I drank for 32 years, and quit drinking at least once a week for all that time...I knew how to stop, but I never learned how to stay stopped until I started to go to AA meetings. I, personally, wouldn't suggest trying to do it without a support group; and, I, personally, consider AA to be the best. JMHO...to all those whose opinions and methods of staying sober may differ from mine.