Funny, I find the hangovers, the longer I go without drinking and then slip, are far more difficult than before. What I used to get up from and go to work with now seems almost debilitating.
I also feel the depression more and I get frustrated by my failure. I started over yesterday after getting to the point where life was really good and no booze was good booze... then I got too busy, didn't come here, didn't share and got cocky enough to actually think one or two wouldn't hurt. They didn't, it was the onset of the obsessive thinking that hurt and led to the full out slip.
Peace, Levi