congratulations, it sounds to me that you have your head in the right place, you know that it is dangerous for you to let your guard down, and you know that your mind plays tricks on you when it comes to your recovery and addiction, this time don't let it...this time you have the wisdom to know that even if you think you can take it or leave it, that is not true... you have an advantage you did not have the last time... use it...good luck to you and be strong...you can fight this and win, many people do...never give up!