Why did it take so long.....
for me to realize COMPLETELY. I mean, I knew that my BF had a problem.....it had been worse, it's gotten a lot better....but it all makes sense....HE'S AN ALCOHOLIC.
- the little lies or being late because he's out drinking
- the urge to have a drink in his hand all of the time
- the selfishness he has but he accuses me of being selfish
- the little quality time we spend together
- how he 'picks' on me like a kid, he can't sit still and just cuddle
- we never have deep conversations unless it's an argument
- always a bottle of wine at home
- always wanting to 'go out with the guys' or be 'social'
Plus- he's a bartender, trying to support his 2 girls who have moved away again for the 2nd time. Okay- see, right there....I just defended him. I have to stop doing that. "But I don't understand", "I'm not in his shoes"....blah blah blah. I'm sick of it now. I love him, I care for him....but I gotta quit giving in.