jamsmom

Hello everyone, I stumbled on this site and have been reading for a couple of weeks now and it has been helpful. My father has been drinking for as long as I can remember. Since I always thought he was the greatest it never seemed like a problem to me until a couple of years ago. He had a successful business and an extravagant lifestyle and from his drinking he lost his business, two wives, his house and is broke. Several months ago he was in the hospital on his deathbed but through a miracle he walked out of the hospital a month later. We all foolishly thought that would end his drinking problem. We all denied the nurses' warnings that he will drink again if he doesn't get help-we thought "oh no, not dad, he can do it". Well we were wrong. His doctor told him one more drink will kill him and he knows it but he continues to sneak drinks. It kills me to see him do this to himself. I have been married for 7 years and my husband drinks too. He sees he road my father is on an continues to drink and doesn't feel he has a problem. He just drinks alone to "have fun" and "relax". I have been to 1 Alanon meeting and have a hundred excuses that I cannot go, my kids-no sitter, who's going to make dinner, it's too late, too far, etc, etc. My point is that I am frustrated and tired of being a mother to my father and my husband. I hate that sick feeling in my gut everytime I smell liquor on them. I hate being angry and the wondering feeling if I will have a sober dad or husband on the weekend. Thanks for listening.....