Thank you, Mara
The way you explain things are so good. I believe that is what I have done to stop the tears...probably way before my son started using drugs. I remember.
Yes, I do not trust the joy and laughter, anymore...so I refrain.
I may put on a good appearance when I have to but it's false. When it is really, it lasts only briefly. Like a fleeting moment of tears and laughter.
What do I do about this? How do I begin to change this? How can I start changing my despair and angry into tears and laughter? I want to find myself, again!
Always,
Linda