Originally Posted by collingwood
I'm an addict who can't stop using pot and pills. Everyday I tell myself I won't use. by the afternoon I change my mind. When I use I tell myself this is the last time. I'm so tired of this. I feel bad when I don't use and I feel bad when I do. How do I get off this merrygoround? I'm depressed. I wake up everymorning feeling bad. I'm having a hard time trying to get myself to a 12 step meeting. I'd appreciate any advice you all have. Thanks
Can you ask somebody to go to a meeting with you? Just having somebody there with you, to give some support might make a difference. The fact that you're getting tired of this situation is somewhat a good sign. You know you need some help. Best of luck to you. Remember that you don't always have to feel the way you do now. Things really can change.