Yuck! What a sticky place to be in. He does deserve to know about the babies, but he doesn't deserve for you to give him the time of day. If you feel that you have the strength to contact him, then maybe you could send him an e-mail, but if you are still worried and aren't sure how to handle things then it might be best to wait. Make sure you are ready to stand strong behind your decisions, whatever they may be. I'm praying for you, I hope this all gets easier. Just revel in the progress your baby is making and don't dwell on things that will move you backwards.
You could always send him a different recipe too, one that isn't ..... as good, just to liven things up a bit.:dead:
Love you,
--Ångel