kipper

Hi all,

Ok so here is where I am at right now...My A is in treatment and has been sober for a month! Things are going very well. I am attending al anon and am finding it to be a very important part of my recovery from this illness. So here is my problem...I fell sad that A and I will never enjoy a bottle of good wine together. It hurts to know that at celebrations in the future we can't toast with champagne or go on vacation and try a local brew or wine. I do not have a drinking problem so in our everyday life this doesn't bother me at all. I rarely drink but do enjoy an occasional celebratory alcoholic beverage.

Does anyone else feel this way? I know I can still drink, the part that bothers me is that we can't together. We want to go to Italy and I would love to enjoy a local wine with him. I just won't enjoy doing it alone.

I feel selfish for feeling this way.
It makes me question if I want to spend the rest of my life being careful for him but also not enjoying drink responsibly without him.

Anyone else had these feeling?

Thanks