Freaking Out
today is day 20. I am scared, When I sleep I am having terrible dreams. I dream about all the horrible things I have done. My family no longer wants me, I have no friends, the ones I had hate me. This distruction has been going on longer than I care to admit. I am married and love my husband but past loves haunt me. I was so horrible to so many people. I am afraid to sleep because of the dreams, but if I don't sleep I am so tired and miserable. I am scarded today! I do not know why I am so miserable. I wake up and cry and am afraid to sleep. Sobriety sucks and I am scared! Help me!