I agree withyour feelings and all the above posts...
One thing is
Why would ANYONE want to have sex with someone who had just been yelling at them and calling them names ?? Whether he remembered or not ???
I actually have been single for quite awhile now since I realized that I have always had sex "for someone else" never for me, had memories come up of date rape that I rationalized away and another rape that I have completely repressed...
Because of those "old" beliefs about myself and my worth...
I need to NOT be in a sexual relationship as I work all this out and establish "who I am" in this area (for me)...I sure wish it would hurry up tho...I'm not getting any younger (ha ha)
You GO GIRL !!! Trust yourself - Don't Ever do anything that doesn't feel RIGHT for you..Especially sex - which is meant to be a special loving shared experience !!!!
Janni