Thanks for responding everyone.
I don't have many people I can talk to about what I go through. Some days I wake up strong and able to handle things that come my way, from my husband. But when those other days come by, all I can do is pray for God to give me strength. I am learning that no matter what is going on I have to be responsible for me, I can't carry my husband's load. As you said "LET GO AND LET GOD". If I don't caught myself I can find myself being pulled down with him. Another problem is that he is in denial of his addictions. He can stop any time he wants (as long as I don't bother him). I finally told him that if I did everything right, he would still find fault. So I continue to pray, have faith and believe that my life is worth living for me and my son. I want our lives to be one of the success stories - that we survived and can now help others get through.
Peace and Love,
meme
