Yeah. I understand completely Paul. I feel like that almost every day.....
I have been thinking about my freedom a lot lately. Even though I feel "stuck" much of the time, recognizing that I am free takes a lot of pressure off..... and that by acknowledging my freedom, I am also acknowledging that my obligations are choices also. It makes me accountable, and while that isn't always comfortable, it's also a reminder that my destiny is of my creation. That's a liberating thought in itself.
Just remember that you are always free.