Oh yes, the volatility of life and associated emotions. They can overwhelm. Fortunately you also have the capacity to override them. I think of bailing pretty much every day. But also every day I'm reminded why I stay where I am. There are positives and negatives everywhere you look, depends on how you choose to look at things. You're in Washington state? Man, I'd be heading for the ocean or those amazing Cascade mountains for a day hike were I there. I was in Washington 15 years ago and before leaving promised myself I'd one day return, that's amazingly beautiful country. I hope you can find some peace today.