I was kinda questioning that too. His slate will never be clean. That kinda stays on the slate forever. Forgiveness, however, is something I need to decide to do if I want to stay in this relationship, otherwise, staying angry only hurts me and the family. I need to forgive and stay or not forgive and leave - two choices. The anger and pain will stay for a long time. He has been doing alot to gain my trust back. Time will tell I guess. If he would have just said he was sorry and went back to all his old ways then that would have been a different story - I could not have taken that. Laura