Bfree4U

Oh hon... I wish you would just surrender to your addiction. By that I mean admit it won the war and surrender. Stop fighting the war and accept that it has complete and total control over you if you let it into your body. The only time you have any control is before you put that substance inside your body. That is the only time cuz once you let it in it wins. I know down to my toes how hard this feels but please just surrender the war and stop fighting it. Just admit to it's power over you and stop trying to fight it and stop letting it inside you. It truly is poison. It sucks your self worth and lies to you that you cannot stop using it. You really can. Throw yourself to the ground and ask whatever higher power you know... or just ask for one... and give yourself over to accepting help. You are worth living. You are one of the most beautiful unique creations with whom the universe is well pleased. If you seek it out... it's energy can enter you and carry you into your recovery but without the most key ingredient - your willingness and openness - your struggle will continue.

You can recover. Everyone who has come before you knows this from the depths of their souls. Everyone who has risen as you can... sees your future as it could be. Believe in it and go there.

We are all here for you. Each and every one of us. Now you just need to be there for you even though you feel like you don't deserve it. You do.

Much love,

Suga

I'm glad you're still on-board

Best wishes
Pete

Hey Beth,,

Ya know,, we will never give up on you here. Please don't give up on yourself.

So many of us see ourselves in you,.. It hurts to see you give excuses for not seeking help, and recovering, when we know how good it is to get help, and have a much better life through recovery. You have every right to live, and be free from this horrendous disease as the rest of us. You CAN be happy hun.. You WILL be happy if you just give LIFE A CHANCE....

Now, go get some help... Please stop making excuses.. Just do it.. There are so many people here that want to see you get the help you DESERVE!!! :Val004:

We love you Beth!!!

I'm praying for you..
Becky

What do you have to lose? You have lost everything else Beth! Give rehab a chance! Give yourself the life you deserve!

[Beth]. Great big hug.

I'm sorry you're in so much pain. I'm sorry you've come to this very hard place.I wish I had a magic wand to wave your way. I can tell you that everything changes, the good as well as the bad. This will pass. Your life will be different soon. Better or worse? I wish I knew, for me as well as for you.

Suicide (there, I said it) is the ultimate insult to the survivors. You say to the people who knew you, including those here on SR, that we weren't good enough, we weren't smart enough, we couldn't give you the love you needed when and how you needed it.

No one always gets the right kind and quantity of love. Some never do.

29,000 kids that are going to die of malnutrition today couldn't care less about your problems. Neither did the 29,000 who died yesterday. Neither will the 29,000 who will die tomorrow. But hey, we're gaining; 15 years ago it was 40,000 a day.

Millions of people in jail would love to trade places with you. So would hundreds of thousands with terminal illnesses who don't want to die yet.

None of that eases your pain. All it does, if you choose to let it, is open your eyes. No one wants to die. The survival instinct is strong. All anyone wants is to be relieved of pain.

Live on.