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After managing 18 months absolutely fine, the inevitable happened - someone gave me a drink at Christmas; and for the past 18 months I have been battling with it all over again. It just seems to be history repeating itself and I feel completely cornered by it. I can managed the odd day or so of it, no problem, but am straight back on it again. Just want it to stop now. Hoping that writing this will help. This is the only place, the only person, who knows and who can help me.

Welcome back Badga :)

You know the drill - post as much as you need to, post to others, read around, work out a reasonable recovery action plan for yourself to leave alcohol behind for good :)

There a new support thread just opened up too :)
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-part-1-a.html
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Welcome back, Badga. You can do this and coming here to post is a good first step.

Good to see you Badga - sorry for the bad time you've been having.
The last time I decided to try social drinking I was gone for years - and upended my life in a very dangerous way.
Finding SR, reading & posting here each day, helped me stay vigilant & determined. You can do it, there is no doubt.

Welcome back. :). come here for support if you get the urge to drink. we'll try to talk you out of it. :)

Thanks a lot everyone. These messages have made me cry, in a good way.

During the brief 18 months of not drinking, I felt happy, healthy, lost some much-needed-to-lose weight, didn't have anxiety, was calmer, less agitated, slept better, had more money. I want all of that again....for good though.

I will keep posting.

Welcome back to SR Badga. The benefits you found during those 18 months of not drinking are immense. Maybe write them down and keep them to hand for when you start to feel like drinking in the future. Also write down what the last 18 months have brought you, when you were drinking again. It will make for a good comparative exercise.

Welcome back!
It truly is a better life

Good your back. I'm sorry for your relapse. One drink, and on Christmas, a day of joy and hope. One drink! It was the first drink. The first drink is the dangerous one. You take that drink and you feel OK, so why not another? All the rest of those drinks don't matter. The first drink is the one that matters.

Welcome back!

someone gave me a drink at Christmas; and for the past 18 months I have been battling with it all over again.

I know the feeling. The effects of one drink lasts for more than a year.

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Welcome back, Badga! Glad to see you.