I Need You Guys
 

I don't want to go into all of the details yet - but today is day 2.
My name's Chris and I'm an alcoholic.

Hey Chris, sorry you're still struggling to beat this thing.

How are you doing? What happened?

Hi Chris, glad you surrendered on this last run.

Goes nowhere.

I seem to have come to the place where my brain literally associates alcohol with misery after many many HORRIBLE "runs".

You can and will get to that place. Every time it leads to misery youll subconciously register the fact that its going no where else BUT to more misery.

Weve crossed that line. No more fun with that garbage, not that it ever was.

Dont beat yourself up, heal, and start on creating a LIFE.

Hi Chris,

Congrats on day 2. You will physically and emotionally feel better one day at a time. You are not alone. I have numerous awful consequences from my last bender. I am 18 days sober and feel much better. I am able to think clearly and execute a plan to have a better life.
I look forward to reading about your Sober journey

We need you too, Chris - we learn from each other. I'm so glad you posted.
Congratulations on Day 2. Those early ones are rough - but you are on your way to a better life. You will heal and rise above the misery.

The worst part is the shame and remorse.
Second worst part is the insomnia and sense of impending doom (doom feeling mostly comes when I'm alone).
Third worst part is the lack of appetite and sometimes nausea. Luckily the nausea hasn't been terrible this time.

We are here!

Do you have someone who can stay with you?

welcome

(((Chris))) We're here for you. :hug: The early part can be rough, but it gets better the longer you stay sober. :hug:

Hi Chris, glad you are here. I need you as well. I need the newcomers, the old timers, and everyone in-between. Shares help me on my path of self-discovery when I listen to what is behind the share with my heart and not just hear the words. Where I have been. What I did to change.What it is like now. My hope for the future. I need it all. Thank you. There is strength in numbers.

My dad stays with me. But I'm actually just working today since I'm not jumpy.

Glad you are back w us, Chris. You def don't have to go into any details with us, but if you do then know we will listen. Glad about your last post- not being jumpy is a HUGE thing.

I'm gonna save so much money not buying booze. I was up to $20 a day on a 750 mL bottle of vodka and a pint of whiskey (the pint so I could "hide it" from my dad).

Welcome Chris! Glad you are here and posting again.

I used to feel what you described above all the time. I really do get how you feel right now. It reminds me of me.

Since I have worked a program of recovery, I no longer feel shame, remorse, or a sense of impending doom.

The physical symptoms usually go away too after we have been sober a for awhile.

Sobriety has been the greatest thing in my life, though it didn’t just “happen”, I had to do some work and do some things differently.

Stick around, there are a whole lot of people here who can help you in your early days of sobriety.

As you can see my friend you are not alone. Longer you off the sauce. The better things will start to be ✌

I’m glad you’re “back”. Being able to work is encouraging. Eating lightly as you can tolerate will help, also staying hydrated. Looking forward to your updates.

We're always here for you, TWOM.

I hope you can make a solid plan to stay sober.

Hey Chris sounds like you are struggling I feel for you man. There is hope. For me trying to get over the guilt of a relapse, or the guilt of having so much less time than I did before was what took me back out. How badly do you want sobriety this time?

Day 1.5
 

Hey Chris I'm on day 1.5 yes I added the .5 because it feels earned. I wouldn't have made it this far I talked in the chat and on the forums anything not to drink...there are so many people that have done what we are trying to do and have your back... Let's go I know we have another day in us and one more after that! I know you had your reason for quitting hold on tight to that!

welcome back TWTOM.

whats the plan to make this time different? :)

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Im sure you already know this but that all goes away when you stay off the sauce. You just have to stop the habit. As much as you think it sucks just dont pick up a drink. Its just the booze telling you its hard to quit. Its not THAT hard. When you go to have that drink just dont. It is tough but you have to be tough. Pretty soon its not that tough any more. You know all this stuff, you just have to make it stick. Although I was not posting I spent over 10 years telling myself I need to quit. Just about every morning. Your time will come but make it sooner rather than later or to late. Best of luck to you, you have a good start. Keep it going.

Dee,
I dont know.

To everyone,
I am still sober and going on day 3.

I hope your day goes well and you feel better as the day progresses.

Wishing you well. :)

Hi Chris. I need everyone here too! We are all here for each other. Stay close and take good care of yourself 💕

My goal for today is to try to shut down some of that "You're a worthless POS" internal talk that plagues me when I'm sober.

I don't like who I am when I am drinking at all.
Lots of stuff that I have done and said, I am royally ashamed of.

I just need to let it go.
It was a side effect of my self medication.

I'm lucky I've never had a DUI, or worse, hurt someone while driving drunk.
And some of the things I've said on social media or online in general were just *facepalm.*

Anyways, tomorrow will be day 4 :)

Yay. You made it. You're a miracle. Stay.