Class of September Part 1 2019
 

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I am on day 2, but I think I would be best served by joining the September group. I will be the first to toss in my hat.
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Welcome Pouncer :)

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Want to welcome those seeking sobriety. I found my way to Sober Recovery in September 2010 after 35 years of daily drinking with the last 10 years of it knowing I should quit and not being able to. But in 2010 I had a moment of clarity (after a night of yet-again uncontrollable drinking) and said that was it.

I committed to sobriety, made the changes I needed to support a sober lifestyle, and learned how to cope with life without the crutch of alcohol. Wasn't easy, but haven't had a drink since Sept 10th of 2010. I live and love a sober life.

Life has its challenges; recovery has allowed me to face them. My alcohol and drug free life has been a blessing. I wish each of you the same.

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welcome sodasoba -good to have you join us:)

thanks Carl:)

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Hi I'm in too.

Im here for September. It's the first day of spring here.

Hi Finalcall and RAL :)

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Hello & Welcome to all who are joining the Sept. 2019 Class!

:wave: thanks ChloeRose :)
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Hi I'd like to join too, looking forward to first of many sober months

I'm in.

WELCOME ALL!! The Class of Thread was one of the best things I joined in when I first got to SR.

Welcome TinkerBelle and Bob :)

Thanks August :)

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Thanks Dee. Hope you are feeling good.

Well a new month and hopefully a new start, I'm on day 2 after a 4day binge after a month dry, did well in that month outwardly, had my girls for 2weeks and had a great time with them, but I only got to one AA meeting in that month and drank after I took them back to their mum's.

My sponsor said on the day before I drank that he couldn't sponsor me anymore as he's too ill which was fair enough but saw this as yet another rejection. Start a college course tomorrow which I missed the induction day for last Wednesday and feel anxious about facing that but glad I managed to stop yesterday now to hopefully give myself a good start.

There is nothing left in drinking for me, I know that only too well but it's the stuff I turn too to relieve, rejection, doubt and anxiety. I'm 38 now and know I need to start living as I can't function anymore with that poison inside me...

Dearest 1step, my friend, so happy to see you. :hug: s

As it happens, I started a college course last week and also missed the first day, and yes, it is nervy for sure. But it will be alright....I am going to catch up with the classwork today through Blackboard...can you do the same? :) :hug: s

I am so sorry about your sponsor's ill health, but I wouldn't take it as a rejection love....it is honest and caring to let a sponsee know that you are unable to be there for them I think. :hug: s

You will find another sponsor.....and hey, talk to us.....bet this is a fantastic class. :) :hug: s

WELCOME to all of you! :)

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Checking in on day 3. Feeling a lot better today.

Reading through SR posts again has helped me make new realizations about my past sobriety. Working on not feeling 'different' or 'special.' I am an alcoholic and getting sober is the most difficult thing I have faced.

Still, I am feeling hope with all of the camaraderie here at SR.

Of course you are special love. :)

I remember hearing in the rooms that I was not unique....I didn't deal with that very well.....I get it now, I am not alone in this disease.....all of us who deal with this have a great deal in common. But we are still all different, and special in our own way.... :) :hug: s

Great to see you here Venus, and thanks for the lovely welcome, feel bit better and less edgy tonight after eating well today. I'll make a commitment to post on here everyday this month..... x

Hi class.

.....so, off we go. A little background: My best sober time has been a maximum of about 4 months. Not a great deal. If I am honest, I've always seen them as 'dry runs' rather than serious attempts at long term sobriety. Eventually and inevitably, I drop off again. I dont 'relapse', feel shame and guilt, I just get tired of sober living and go back to the alternative.
This is a big part of the problem I think. With the sober stretches, I have found that yes, I really enjoy living without intoxication. But it wears off, and the attraction of the other life strengthens again. You have two lives.....and start to toggle between them. Which has been pretty much the story of the last few years for me.
But this too changes. It gets progressively harder to make the transition back to the sober life. Somewhere along the way hangovers get superceded by withdrawals. The withdrawals that used to take 4 days now linger for a week.
It gets harder. What ppl here call kindling.

I've done this solo....usual tale of marriage dissolved. A few years later job followed. Plenty of time, fortunately enough resources, job not really missed, was ready to go anyway. But living alone, with a limited social network....the situation begins to slide.

This is roughly where I've got to. Have learned a few ways to get stopped but need to step it up to stay stopped.
Ok.....looking forward to getting to know you better. I hope we can support each other through the coming days.

Later.

Lovely to meet you honey.....I think there will be wonderful support in this class. :hug: s

I hear you.....that voice that keeps taking us back.....I did that for over 20 years. :(
Until I got here..... :hug: s

Hi everyone well made it through day 1, not going to lie it was miserable, i was miserable, anxious and angry at myself for putting myself back here. But i will go to sleep and wake up sober so that's an improvement on yesterday.

Gosh day 1 is hard.....but getting through it (especially on your own) is super seriously fantastic Tinkerbeau. What a win. I bet you wake up smiling tomorrow. :hug: :) xx

Your post resonates with me Sobasoda and Tinkerbeau. I started my journey a year ago and after 7 months AF I thought I could have an occasional glass of wine. I have found that moderation will never work for me and want to kill the beast once and for all:).

So glad you joined us Runner. :) :hug: s xx