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Stay sober. It won't always be this way. :hug: It gets better, I promise. :hug:

Congrats on 16 days. Sorry you are feeling wretched.

It is still early in your sobriety, so it is quite normal to go through these ups and down. If they continue, though, you should go to a doctor and see if some form of depression is at the root of your problems. Not saying you are medically depressed, just that it is more effectively treated if you are sober.

I've expressed my feelings of "what's the point of life" on this board. That feeling passed, and I feel great. You will too. Just let it pass.

As others have said, this will pass Eve. Are you making sure to take care of your basics - make sure you are eating enough, getting sleep and getting a little moderate exercise - taking a walk is even a great idea.

I know we shouldn't blame alcohol for 100% of our problems- but once you quit, you sure do find a lot of problems it was responsible for.

For me, that "I am sh**" line was huge when I was drinking. In fact the voice would be far far worse than that. It would literally say "you should just kill yourself".

I never came close to that, fortunately. I regarded it as a melodramatic self-appeal for help. I thought that was just me and my self esteem. What was fascinating is how that voice went away when I stopped drinking.

I'm sure our inner psyche is a rich tapestry that cannot be unraveled completely- but I can't help blame alcohol for this one. Give it a couple more weeks and you're likely to see some very significant changes in yourself.

We all did things that we regret but none of them can be changed. Worrying about it only causes more pain and sadness.

You have all the rest of our life left though - so what you do today is far more important than anything you've done in the past. Make it a good day and find something positive to do, it all adds up.

Yes, it is hard - but most things in life worth having are not easy. Keep working and moving forward and you will be rewarded.

Day 16 is great, so be proud of yourself. And, yes the ups and downs are usually a part of early recovery. We need to learn how to manage our emotions because often we've spent years numbing ourselves. I wonder what else you are doing besides not drinking. I found exercise and music both helped me a lot.

I was the same.
Raw intense feelings.
It does get easier.
Just get through today and tomorrow will be different again.
There’s a lot of stuff your brain is processing at the moment.
Don’t let these temporary feelings and thoughts ruin your chance of freedom.
You’re doing great, keep going.
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Eve123, 16 days is FANTASTIC, congratulations. I had plenty of pain and suffering at 16 days sober. At almost 9 years sober the pain and suffering concerning substance abuse has vanished. You can do it, we are all rootin for ya. :egypt:
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Hang in there, Eve. Most alcoholics find satisfaction in sobriety. Some fine it sooner than others. I wish I could print magic words to make you happy, but I can't. I hope you find peace.

Let it out. Feel your emotions. Cry until your eyes hurt (that was my case). Tomorrow will be better, and as others have said, this will pass. Don’t drink, keep going!

Just keep at it! 16 days is a great start, one day you'll realize that you've forgot to count and have to look at a calendar and be surprised by the number. Look foreward to that day.

just hard to accept the damage alcoholism has done and how long it took for me to finally see that

well drinking ain't gonna fix it!
you are exactly where you are supposed to be....a smidge over two weeks as a sober person. you ARE going to have ups and downs, we all do. the longer you stay sober and do the footwork, the less high or low those ups and downs will be. but you are not guaranteed to have sunshine and smooth sailing from here on out.

life on life's terms. some days good. some days great. some days eh. just how it is in the life of a human.

Hope you're doing well, Eve. Keep us posted. Don't worry about spending some extra time in bed if you need it, just listen to your body.

Glad today is looking better eve :)

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