prayers

I'm so sorry you are suffering. Thoughts and prayers are with you xx

I can relate big time. My estranged mother passed 6 years ago. In the very end I had to decide if i wanted to see her one more time. I chose not to. I felt horrible, but I was protecting myself. What good would it do to have her verbally abuse me one last time? She was an abusive alcoholic like your dad.

The night I decided not to see her before she died, I got soooo drunk. I got drunk after the funeral too. I wish I hadn't handled it like that. I'm still struggling with addiction, but I vow that i will NEVER put my son through what I went through and that is why i have to stop this. Right here right now.

A Dear One came by work today. She said she could read the pain I'm in. She had no clue what has happened. (THIS is my only "social media" so there is no public outcry of wrongdoing, loss etc. )
With her hug came the wisdom of ' Don't let him rob you of all your work'. There is truth in that statement. Echoes now.

Prayers of peace for us all.

My sincerest condolences.
I wish you strength at this time, 3wolves.