never have serenity
 

i dont believe i'll ever have serenity until my death

(((GMS)))

You have a very tough set of circumstances.

Do you ever watch comedy? Sometimes it helps.

normally i dont watch them ...apart from jim carey but he gone serious now well the last time i heard anything about him


pills tomorrow

I know you have had good times too GMS, because you've come here and talked about them. I don't think anyone truly ever achieves that perfect "nirvana/inner peace/zen" that we sometimes read about, and even if we do it's very short lived.

think am having a break down
i cant call anyone not even my sponsor my life is gone no more
sorry

Where is your husband...he can help. You can call your sponsor too - or maybe your therapist.

i cant no one can help me tomorrow thats it me done sorry i need help but i cant be stable enough for the gender people

Try some Ice cream. I was never a fan before, but once I did, it changed my mind.

too fat for ice cream too fat for any food

Where is your husband?

here but dont know am doing this

Please tell him, he can help you calm down.

he cant he hates me he shouts at me for self injurying am dead
he cant know

i have to go now sorry i need to do this

Gosh I really hope you are ok

Be safe GMS....everything will be OK and it's OK to let him know you need help.

its not he hates me

You do not need to do that, GMS. Please call A&A or the ER.

They can help you.

We love you and think very highly of you.

Do notbworrynaboit the gender people. Who are they to judge you?

That's not true GMS...he has helped you many times before. He may not like some of the things you do but that's because he cares about you and doesn't want anything bad to happen to you. Neither do we.

i got to am sober yet am dying i cant handle it any more